I wrote this in February and never posted this.
This season of my life has been incredible. I love school even though I have hardly any free time because of it, I have had such favor with interpreting, and I am a few sessions away from mixing songs I have been working on for a few months. Outside of the natural, I have been walking in the joy of the Lord more than I could have imagined in the past five weeks as He has been growing, renewing, and transforming my inner man.
Sometimes I feel no need to blog if I have already told people the contents of a potential blog in real life. The things I do not tell, however, become worthy of written expression.
I am so overwhelmed by everything God has been doing in my heart. There has been such peace and joy in the presence of the Lord in the past 9 months. I have had so many layers of lies and religion ripped off my me that I am starting to actually understand what it means to walk in freedom.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Crazy Week Part One
Though I doubt anyone reads a blog that gets updated every few months, still I need to tell someone - even if that person doesn't read this - about the season I find myself in.
For the sake of readability and flow, I will try sticking to one point per entry.
Tuesday - Happy 22nd Birthday.
A close friend experienced radical transformation in the 22nd year of life. This was a year of immersion and intimacy into the person of the Holy Spirit. The same mantel has been given to me and I am certain of it. I cannot begin to explain how much my life has been transformed in the past six months and I know it only gets deeper from here. Layers of religion and false doctrine shed, I found myself on the teetering on the edge of something incredible this summer, yet I had no idea what it was. Finally, I knew it was the River I was diving into. Anyway, that season grew my hunger for so much more of my beautiful Jesus. I have loved Him from a distance for quite some time, but I find myself being drawn into the inner chambers just to be with Him without my grocery list of prayer needs more and more often.
In the midst of increased faith and expectancy, I see my Aunt and Uncle both recovering poorly from surgery. I see a close friend's father pass away (which I will write about later). I see myself still struggling with Lyme's Disease and the weird arthritis it has caused in my hands and feet. It feels like hitting a brick wall for someone who has recently dove into the realm of taking God a His word and believing sickness was nailed to the cross 2,000 years ago.
I told the youth group on Wednesday (another topic I want to discuss later) that the areas in which you find yourself struggling the most are most likely areas called to contain great anointing. There is oppression in these areas so that you will give up before you have the opportunity to walk in the fullness of that specific anointing.
I believe I can heal the sick because I believe in Jesus and He said I would.
Although I have never spoken it to another soul, I have felt the whisper of God for months telling me that I have a special anointing for healing. Interesting since I have been struggling with my own illness for a year now. What I said to to the youth group completely rings true in my life. I see so much oppression in my family's and my health, but I refuse to believe that what the disciples were able to do before they were even saved - heal the sick, cast out demons, and raise the dead - will not happen in my life for whatever reason.
I think this is my wilderness season in some ways. After Jesus was baptized and filled with the Holy Spirit, He had a season in the wilderness being tempted my Satan before Satan finally gave up because he realize Jesus was never going to cave. I see so much sickness, sin, and suffering around me and inside of me, but I cannot and will not accept it as just being "the way things are."
I will probably come back and edit this when I have a right mind. I think the point is that no matter what is placed before me I know that I am called to something so much bigger than normal. That is what my 22nd year will demonstrate. I have grown in the small things and this is a year of huge leaps both in natural and supernatural authority.
For the sake of readability and flow, I will try sticking to one point per entry.
Tuesday - Happy 22nd Birthday.
A close friend experienced radical transformation in the 22nd year of life. This was a year of immersion and intimacy into the person of the Holy Spirit. The same mantel has been given to me and I am certain of it. I cannot begin to explain how much my life has been transformed in the past six months and I know it only gets deeper from here. Layers of religion and false doctrine shed, I found myself on the teetering on the edge of something incredible this summer, yet I had no idea what it was. Finally, I knew it was the River I was diving into. Anyway, that season grew my hunger for so much more of my beautiful Jesus. I have loved Him from a distance for quite some time, but I find myself being drawn into the inner chambers just to be with Him without my grocery list of prayer needs more and more often.
In the midst of increased faith and expectancy, I see my Aunt and Uncle both recovering poorly from surgery. I see a close friend's father pass away (which I will write about later). I see myself still struggling with Lyme's Disease and the weird arthritis it has caused in my hands and feet. It feels like hitting a brick wall for someone who has recently dove into the realm of taking God a His word and believing sickness was nailed to the cross 2,000 years ago.
I told the youth group on Wednesday (another topic I want to discuss later) that the areas in which you find yourself struggling the most are most likely areas called to contain great anointing. There is oppression in these areas so that you will give up before you have the opportunity to walk in the fullness of that specific anointing.
I believe I can heal the sick because I believe in Jesus and He said I would.
Although I have never spoken it to another soul, I have felt the whisper of God for months telling me that I have a special anointing for healing. Interesting since I have been struggling with my own illness for a year now. What I said to to the youth group completely rings true in my life. I see so much oppression in my family's and my health, but I refuse to believe that what the disciples were able to do before they were even saved - heal the sick, cast out demons, and raise the dead - will not happen in my life for whatever reason.
I think this is my wilderness season in some ways. After Jesus was baptized and filled with the Holy Spirit, He had a season in the wilderness being tempted my Satan before Satan finally gave up because he realize Jesus was never going to cave. I see so much sickness, sin, and suffering around me and inside of me, but I cannot and will not accept it as just being "the way things are."
I will probably come back and edit this when I have a right mind. I think the point is that no matter what is placed before me I know that I am called to something so much bigger than normal. That is what my 22nd year will demonstrate. I have grown in the small things and this is a year of huge leaps both in natural and supernatural authority.
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